♥ Reliance

The one that got away

2011-12-16T02:33:00.001-08:00

Sometimes you’ve gotta stop being so stubborn in order to change your life for the better.

How long have i not blogged ? I missed blogging so much. Bought a new laptop recently & it felt great to finally have something i can call my own. :) Recently, i've been thinking a lot about my studies next year and life in Perth. Pretty afraid of being alone there since sis is continuing her studies in Brisbane which is a totally new place for her too. All the best sis. Study hard in achieving your dream :) Time flew so quickly and i'm about to leave my parents for a whole year. I'm so used to seeing them everyday..but i know all these are steps i must take in order to grow up. Being pampered felt good, but i can't keep depending on my parents to do everything for me can I.

Made lots of mistakes this year, but I've learnt and I promise not to repeat them again :) Though 2011 is not over yet, I have to say it has been a wonderful yet dreadful year for me. Why dreadful ? Because i've lost someone very very dearly to me, my grandmother. Never knew that there will be a day she'll eventually leave my side. It's just too soon to accept the fact that she left. She really did. She watched me grow and took care of me since i was born. But I just didn't care enough. She woke up early every morning around 6 am just to see me off to school and stood by the door to greet me home from school at the evening. She never failed to ask me "Have you eaten?" everyday I got back from school. She loved me that much.

I didn't spare much time to chat with her even when i was free. What was i doing then? Busy surfing webs all night. Until one day, she constantly fell sick. That was the time when I started worrying about her health. I started cherishing her more because I really missed her absence when she stayed in the hospital for weeks. I started visiting her very often and brought her food as well. I held her hand and asked her if she's okay. Everytime I asked that question, she'll always say that she's fine and advised me to take care of her belongings in her room. After she was discharged from the hospital, she stayed in my aunty's house because it was easier for her to walk around.

I visited her often until few months before my Trial exam, I stopped because I thought she was perfectly okay and was too caught up with my own things. I couldn't be bothered. During that period, she got admitted into the hospital several times & the number of times I visited her decreased. The last time i visited her was at my aunty's house, a week before she got admitted into the hospital again.

I regretted that a lot. I should've known she was lonely and I should've been more concerned for her. One early Sunday morning, I received a call from my mum. Before answering the phone, I knew something important happened. When i answered, I heard my mum crying, til she could hardly utter a word, but I managed to hear what she said. I was shocked and couldn't believe it. I didn't even get to see her for the last time. Attending her funeral was the saddest moment I've been through.

But I believe that she has went to a better place, she doesn't need to suffer anymore. & that God has better plans for her. Always remember that I love you, Grandma. You'll always stay in my heart and I promise you, I'll study hard and make you proud.

I need another story

2011-01-30T02:50:00.000-08:00

幸福在手里

2010-12-29T20:21:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, you need to be alone. Not to being lonely, but to enjoy your free time being you and yourself.

Came back from KL few days ago. it was quite a fun trip :D hhaha. Wanna go back there again. Though i rly dislike the traffic jams there, a lot. I rmb the taxi ride we took to sg wang took about an hour. And had to pay 50 bucks. I don't know if the taxi driver cheated us or not because the return trip was only 14 dollars, from a different taxi. And it took only 15 to 20 mins. Lol :/.

There were x'mas decorations everywhere. Looks so pretty :).

Bought rose scrunchies & Gifts for friends.

Isn't the tea cup cute! :D

Piggie buns. SO CUTE RIGHT (:

2c Reunion Dinner, 29/12/10.

It was a night to remember and quite a lot of ppl managed to show up. Kenric and i were the MC for that night. Thanks Kim and Chung for organizing this event. ;)

Cyn, me, van and landa.

Kim Tik Jul & Cyn (:

Us with the lucky draw prizes! Jun wei aka bday boy (middle) received rubik`s cube! HAHAHA.

This is a nice pic!

Awesome night!

All that still matters, is love ever after

2010-12-22T21:03:00.001-08:00

Time flies. Don't you think so? December to me is like ending really really soon. Today's 23rd. It's my sis' Birthday :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥ 2 days ago was Zu's Birthday. Happy Belated :) ♥ We surprised her with a cake at her house! She seemed shocked and stuff. HAHA tht was the kind of expression we were hoping for. Anyway. Ley and i went to attend a driving talk last Sat. It was quite boring during the morning session. But during the afternoon one, the instructor was damn funny & totally kept us awake.

Gonna be a form 5 Student soon. I feel myself growing old. Anyway had an outing yesterday at Spring with Kenric, Kim, Jw, Adr, CH & Xuan :). We were practically soo engrossed with a shop til we stayed there for nearly half an hour. -_-

Kimmie ♥ She looks like a bee~ :3

Jw & Kim. I look like an old man posing. LOL

Asian Eyes

Thanks kenric for the iphone casing! I've been looking everywhere for it. Love it so muchie (:

I like the simplicity. And it's worth it. + Cheaper thn the ones u buy from Switch. The package included 2 Screen protectors & etc.! ♥ Hope it doesn't dirty very fast. :(

Just had my driving law exam in the morning. I was pretty nervous, but it went well. I passed, hehe. Flying to kl tmr. I wanna do lots of shopping :)

我们说好的

2010-12-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

It's hard to trust someone completely when you always get this feeling that something is holding you back. I don't think i know how to trust anyone anymore. It takes a long time to have it built, but it takes just one second to ruin it. Some how it seems so easy to just trust someone..But once it's betrayed, it can't be earned back right?

♥

It has been a rough week! Anyways. I had a date with Mum that day. I have to admit the BEST mussels you can find in Kuching is still at Mr Ho's. It's super yummy and affordable. The mushroom sauce is quite heavy but you will never want to miss it :) hehe.

I Love the crunchy bread too! Dipping it with the sauce is yumm. :( I feel hungry now ..

Anyways. Kenric came back from Perth not long ago! Had an outing w some of them at Spring. Went Kbox with them! Was 7 of us. Then we saw Michael, CS and Bren there too. They joined us at the end. Hehe. :) It was fun. Bought Donuts for family and went home. He's in sg now. How I wish i was there!

Xuan came back from kl around 4 this afternoon and she dropped by my house to discuss about some blogshop stuffs and gave me some gifts she gt for me from kl. Thankyou. :3 Haircut session with her soon :}

She got me this and helped me with it. Basically, just follow the instructions manual and a pretty crystal will appear :D Hehe. You were also told to make a wish. I hope my wish will be granted.

It's late already. I'm going to sleep. #xoxo ♥

物极必反

2010-12-02T08:10:00.000-08:00

I can't take this part of myself that has been broken into pieces many many times. And yet still got back up. Hurt for a few more times. Stood up, moved on. This comes back. It's like a repeated Cycle.

Had a crazy day with my sis. It was fun though. Hehe. Went to the office and photo crazed using Photobooth Cos she's so vain. HHAHA.

Emo Much hehe.

Kissing myself :* !

Worked for a little while before going to Spring to have our hair cut and have our ears pierced. :D Went R&I for haircut because of the friendly & Understanding and sociable Aunty to chat with. Hmm After the haircut we went to Tomei to pierce our ears. The process damn funny lor! Because i never had my ears pierced before. It was my first time. So old then pierce right? ): Anywys. At first you get to choose your earrings. I rmb before that i texted Cyn to ask her if it hurts because she gt it done at the same place. She said it felt like an ant bite. Thanks Cyn :3 I felt more calm aft that. My mum was more worried than we were. Aw Mummy i heart u. (:

A promise

2010-11-24T09:07:00.000-08:00

Went spring with xuan again! She's leavin to KL tmr. So i decided to spend time with her today. Since i cnt see her for the next 16 days.. :( Why is everyone close to me leaving me alone in Kuching, Hahah. I'm so sad. Wish i'm outstation atm too.

Santa hats. Gonna buy similar ones. Hehe We look so happy ♥

HAHA. Time to hit the sheets. 1.13 am now.. Way pass my bedtime.

Said Goodbye

2010-11-21T21:07:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a Sunday. Was so free in the morning, so i went to play Audi (: .. Leveled like 2 levels already Hahha.. Cff is so Active now. Love the old noisy atmosphere again. (: Mum cleaned the room yesterday for my sis when she return. Cos our room was pretty messed up. It was Kim's Bday yesterday. Happy Birthday Kimmie. I hope you loved my present. ♥

The theme was Black, White Or Pink. So I picked pink of courseee. Hahha :)

Lora's Gift.

Gonna nap now. ♥

Blinded by the tears

2010-11-20T06:02:00.000-08:00

"Tell the truth. Sing with passion. Work with laughter. Love with heart."

Went to work today. I realized i've missed out so many things around me. And i'm gonna change for the better :)

After work I dyed my hair to Chiffon Beige using Liese Bubble hair Color. The color isn't so obvious because i have dark colored hair. But i love how natural it looks. :) Quite satisfied.

I'm still disappointed in what happened. But i know i have no rights to speak a word, cos i deserved to feel this way. I'm the only one who's to blame. Perhaps this was what She felt when i was with him. I never expected a friend of mine to make that kind of decision, to not be understanding enough, to not be there for me. Now i know how it feels like. I don't need an apology because it has nothing to do with me anymore.. Last long (: I licensed my Audi character after 3 yrs of camping in Novice. It felt quite different but it takes time, & time heals everything.

Even angels have their wicked Schemes

2010-11-14T02:03:00.000-08:00

Surprisingly got out from bed before 9 today. Moreover its sunday lor. Good mood i guess? Cleaned the house a bit. And then went to watch Skyline at 12 pm with bros and Ee Feng :) It was quite nice though there was no ending. Was like so incomplete. Had silhouette pizza for lunch. Yum.

Since i had nth to do at home, i followed my bro and Ee feng to play golf at Sarawak Club Golf Resort. Bought gloves first. And then started playing already.

Photos taken by Eefeng!

fail.

Golf is an exhausting sport ! Can't wait for my sis to return (:

Where'd you Go ?

2010-11-13T06:41:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 8 plus today. Got woken up by parents and bro sneaking into my room! Eyebags soo heavy already. Hahha not enough sleep i guess. I went Xuan's house early in the morning to discuss about blogshop stuffs. Hehe. Also did some sewing to make keychains with the help of Xuan's clever brain and books lol. Today was my first time. :) Considered quite pro already (according to Xuan) Hehe.

Xuan's Pig.

A simple heart that i made.

Got so tired after that. So i went home around 3. But my bro wanted to go see cars. So i had to wait for him. Saw many nice cars! I love Fairlady. It's so classy ♥
Planned to watch Skyline at 7.15pm. When i went to buy the tickets, There weren't any seats left. Even at 9pm. Totally full. So bought tickets for tmr afternoon instead :) Though there were bad comments and ratings on that movie, i still feel like watching it. Also bought a bubblegum color headphone for my phone. I didn't really like those circular default ones that i got cos it will keep falling off from my ears when i use them. Felt quite loose. Xuan also thought so. So we bought cheap and good pairs of headphones ! :) Btw we came across lots of nice & friendly people there that complimented us a lot. It was so awkward Lol. Kept laughing.

Webcamed with Claudia just now! She just got her hair dyed. Copper red. hehe So pretty. *Envy. My hair is like chocolate brown and it's fading as my hair grows quite fast. Perhaps will dye again after Monday. And the best part is. SHE FINALLY HAS HER IPHONE4. Aww! Her mum gave it to her while we were webcaming. LOL. She screamed hahs so cute! So happy for you Clau. Can't wait to facetime with you ! :) ♥

Clau's smile is so sweet. :) She's goin kl next Tues. And i'm gonna miss her badly! *Envy. Cos she get to shop so much. HAHA.

Alright. Wanna continue watching my drama already and go to sleep soon. ♥

New Start

2010-11-11T01:12:00.001-08:00

Sometimes you have to let things go so there's room for better things to come into your life.

Decided to create a new blog again :) Created a new link and stuff. I've watched a korean drama recently. It's really cute. Haha Based on the Taiwan series It Started With a Kiss.

I rarely watched tht taiwan series. That's why i found this drama soo nice to watch :3. Kim Hyun Joong is soo handsome. Hahha, i loved him when he act in Boys Over Flowers :). Stayed up very late these few days cos i'm kind of addicted to it already! So boring. Watched drama all day long.

Anyways there was an interclass volleyball competition between class 4B and 4C held at the hall today. At first i didn't really cared about it. I thought it didn't mattered which class won. We just went to support them. But halfway through the game, it got exciting. LOL. And very kintio lor. 4B won :) Aw. So proud of them! Knew we could do it.

There were lots of free lessons in sch today. Watched Gossip Girl. Many photos were also taken during lessons using Vince's mac and Clau's photobooth! :)

Acting emo!

Doing the Marcus Smile!

Clau ♥

Trying our best to look like petrified puppies? Hahha
More on facebook though.

Okay. Gonna stop here now. Back to watching GG. Tatas.